How I feel

I try to have a positive attitude.

Even when I'm sick, in pain, and my stomach, heart, and soul is yearning and screaming for some Papa Murphy's Pizza.

I know  being positive makes me more pleasant to be around.

So, I try to be happy, even when all I can eat is juice. (Ughh!)

This is how I appear on the outside.

Haha People are probably thinking….

Oh Camille looks so happy and content with her juice, 

She must be so full and totally not hungry!

Well folks… Think again!

I am hungry.

Even when I eat so simply, my stomach is still wacky.

It hurts, is swollen, full of ulcers, and can't even digest simple watermelon.

The green paper below me is the chart that I use to mark off all my medicine and vitamins.

I'm tired of doing this, but I'm not going to give up.

I'm not satisfied only eating juice.

And I want to eat something crunchy.

It's been nearly two years since I've indulged in food.

And I don't know if I ever will again.

And yes, today I even cried at "lunch" cause I miss the way things used to be before being sick.

I say "lunch" because it was really just juice and soup broth.

And yes I'm still hungry.

Lesson to be learned…

I've gotten through many things and I will continue to grow through this experience.

I will make it through.

And everyday, my food menu in heaven is getting longer and longer.

I truly believe that I will be able to eat what I want in heaven.

If it matters to me, than it matters to my Heavenly Father as well.

Happy Saturday!

Enjoy your food, and please don't take it for granted.