Proof that this is still hard

Today I am an emotional wreck.

I woke up today, not expecting a doctor's appointment.

And much to my surprise I have one.

Oh joy.

I'm having a serious struggle between deciding on herbal medicine (like my diet), or traditional medicine.  My mom is sure that I can do both.  For some reason, either option seems so extreme to me.  Sometimes I just wish I didn't have to make these kinds of decisions.

Yes I still cry.

Sometimes a lot.

Going through this diagnosis of Crohn's Disease has caused me to experience all the stages of grief.

Sometimes all at the same time.

See I'm crying.
But sometimes it's ok to cry.

Today I was supposed to go get help with my calculus.
But I can't cause I have an appointment with a doctor.
It is always awkward and in my head slightly traumatic.
It really stinks that I have to go through this.

However, I do have much to be grateful for as well.
I will instead focus on that.