Life

I am so conflicted right now.  It is hard to be an adult.  There are many times where I wish that I were just a kid again.  I feel too young to deal with sickness, stress, nursing school applications, 4 hour Organic Chemistry tests, relationships, love, etc.  I am happy (Just like last weeks post).  But, I am extremely confused right now.  I am by far too young to know what true love is, feels like, or even looks like.  But, I don't want to miss is when it comes my way.  You know what I'm saying?  Is it possible to not even understand your own emotions?  Or what if you do understand your emotions and you are receiving two completely contradicting emotions?  Anyone else experience this?  Cause this stinks.  My heart is broken.  And the saddest part is that I have been the one to break my own heart because at the time I did what I felt was right and now I am questioning that feeling.  I know that it is possible to mend a broken heart, it can be done, and I will do it.  With the Lords help of course.  I guess what I am trying to say is that tonight my heart is aching and yearning for something.  I feel empty.  I have a few ideas of what it may be.  But I am afraid to acknowledge what I think that I know.  I know that God has a way of working all things out in the end.  Everything will work out.  I just need to have faith.  God places people into our lives for specific reasons.  I am missing friends and family both near and far right now.  I am faced with some pretty big decisions right now.  And I can't make these decisions without the Lords guidance.  "Oh how sweet this sentence gives, I KNOW that my Redeemer lives!"

Life used to be SO simple!