What is true Happiness? Well, I am not exactly sure how to put it into words but I'm pretty sure that is what I have been feeling today. :) I am happy. And life is good. Things are far from perfect, I've got my fair share of sickness, stress, homework, pressure from applying to the nursing program, missing my friends and family like crazy, etc. etc. But who doesn't experience these sort of things? Seriously, this is what mortality is all about. We all experience trials and hard times so that we have a unit of measurement. I know that I am happy because I know that is is the opposite of feeling sad. I know that because I have felt both sides of the emotional spectrum. Why am I so happy today? I can't exactly pinpoint it. But I do know that I am happy because of the hope that I have in my Savior, Jesus Christ. He is the reason why I am overcoming my fear of getting really really sick again. He is the reason why I believe in myself about being accepted into the BYU nursing program. He is the reason that I can make big decisions and put all of my faith and trust in him. Jesus Christ will never lead us astray. I am simply happy today and I haven't done anything different. I simply feel the loving peace from my Savior and Heavenly Father.
(Me and my sister the day I got sick)
This picture means so much to me. And this picture was also taken on the day that my life changed forever. It was my 16th birthday. I was at girls camp and I did not want to spend my "sweet 16" at camp. I also woke up incredibly sick. I have been told that Crohn's Disease doesn't show up until you are at least 16. I guess Chrohn's Disease couldn't wait one minute past 16 to find me. Instead of coming home from camp and having a true sweet 16, I spent the next several months on an incredible journey. At the time I thought that this day was the start of anything but true happiness. Now, I see it as a major contributor of my happiness. I am not Crohn's Disease. BUT it definitely is a huge part of who I am becoming. And it is a huge contributor to my true happiness that I feel so often.
Why does this make me truly happy? It makes me truly happy because I am able to find happiness in true, lasting, and eternal joys. I no longer find happiness in food, often times not in travel, and often times not in exceptional health. But I do find happiness in many more things that are long lasting, true, and eternal. I am so thankful for my family and friends and Savior and Heavenly Father who are right by my side. Every step of the way.
Life works out :) I promise you that. And sometimes when I too forget, I go back and remember times like these. True happiness is not waiting for things to be perfect. True happiness is happiness in the midst of imperfection.
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