In Need of Clarity

Unanswered prayers. Questions. Answered prayers that you don't understand the answers to. What is the solution to all of this? Love.

College is a time where you learn to figure out a lot of things for yourself. And this process never comes without at least some of the following:

• Fear of Failure
• Setbacks
• Trials
• Sickness
• Weakness
• Broken hearts
• Taking risks
• Loss
• Confidence issues

Any of those sound familiar to you? I would be kidding if I said they weren't to me. This week has been interesting, hard, great, and eye-opening. I am learning that love is the antidote to all of the hard and difficult things we face in life. If you have ever been hurt, afraid, or unsuccessful, the secret is to love again. 

I have been showered in love this week and I am thankful to God and those around me for many instances where I have felt loved and aware of. Moments such as an unexpected knock at my door on Valentine's Day from my brother and Dad with some beautiful roses and homemade chocolate covered strawberries, reading through letters that beautifully describe love and to keep your heart open from my great uncle Ray who passed this week, and a knock on the door from one of my very best friend's with a picture of the Savior and a notebook with a note in it that said "as I was walking home I felt that Heavenly Father wants you to know that you are loved and that He is aware of you."

Our Savior sacrificed literally everything for us. And do you think that he would want us to be sad, hurt, or afraid? Of course not! And that is because he loves us, always, unconditionally, and no matter what. His love is always there for us.

I am realizing and re-realizing each time that I feel any sense of sorrow or fear that as I keep my heart open to love it brings clarity into the unclear. I am an example of a person who gets answers to her prayers but doesn't always understand why she gets the answer that she got. I still need to figure out a lot of things, and I know that sometimes the only immediate answer that I get is to "just give it time". But as I come closer to my Savior and strive to love others and myself as he does, clarity comes to my mind that he loves me and is aware of me. And I know that as you too are in need of clarity, he will give you the same knowledge that he loves you and is very aware of you too. So keep on loving, and keep on trying. 

Clarity will come.